First of all I would like to thank God for giving me another year to celebrate life. Thanks to my family and friends who are always there for me through it all.
To be honest, I never really looked forward to my birthday this year. I feel like I’m nearing this so called middle age yet I have never fulfilled most of my plans yet. It’s like coming of age but haven’t really done anything, you know what I mean, right? I don’t know why I’m so obsessed of being successful, it’s eating me from the inside and it makes me feel that I’m left behind. I know there’s no point in comparing my “success” to others, it just doesn’t work that way. I’ve read a lot about this topic, that it’s normal to feel this way, that I’m not the only one capable of feeling this and there are others who are struggling with this negative habit too. I know right, I know but sometimes I just can’t help it. I know that I should stop comparing, with anyone and with anything. Stop, before I totally destroy myself, my confidence, my dreams, my focus and my life.
That’s so depressing post there right? It’s supposed to be a happy birthday post yet I indulged myself in all these negativity. But it’s the reality of the world, the reality of what I’m struggling at the moment.. I can get pass this, I know I can.